Distraction

     I tend to get very distracted. I know I wrote in my last blog entry that I would try writing more, but I let myself get distracted by everything else. I worry that it feels like it’s an excuse not to write and I feel bad because of the people waiting for me to post. I mentioned that I have a hard time making decisions and that includes writing for my blog because it’s difficult to know what topics people are interested in and how I can make one topic different from the other. Sometimes I even wonder if making this blog is a good idea because I worry about keeping up with it. However, the truth is I get a lot of good feedback and it makes me feel good about myself as if this could lead to something.

     Not only does my distraction affect my blog writing, but it also affects other things. For example, I don’t like to talk about PSAT’s or remember how much of money I have in my bank account. I get really nervous about the future and I tell myself my distractions will help me relax and be focused more, but it leads to me being unprepared. I didn’t really think too much about this until I thought about writing it in my blog. People want to receive hope after reading my work, but I don’t see myself as an inspiration. I see myself as a regular person who would be nervous to talk to any of you in person, but I try to continue getting through life.

     I thought while I was being distracted that people would be mad at me for not posting, but I want to share what this blog means to me. This has been very helpful to me to express my feelings and I feel I’m getting better because of it. I want to be less distracted so I can focus on preparing for life after high school and I want to keep making posts. I will try to think of ideas and it might not be too long until I come up with one.