Feelings

     I’m sorry that I have been absent for a long time. I’ve had a lot going on and to be honest the longer I put off writing the harder it was to come back and actually do it. I don’t like to talk about the same things in my posts and it was hard for me to write everything like it was a problem. When I think about what to write, I guess I want to sound like the person who gets through problems, but I worried that writing about the small stuff would sound silly when everyone has those thoughts.

     Confrontation can be scary for me so I try to ignore it by thinking of something else, but it gets more and more in my head how I might be letting viewers down even if not a lot of people read this. Some people think it’s amazing I’m doing this and I shouldn’t stop. I agree, but I’ve had problems where my anxiety makes me worry how a story I’m writing is unoriginal or uninteresting. I want to get through things that are hard for me, but that doesn’t mean they're still not hard.

     As for what’s been happening with me, I got accepted into Bridgewater State University! I feel so proud of myself and I would like to use it as a chance to explore new things. I’m thinking of living there, having a roommate. I want to try socializing and going out so I can have fun while heading for the future. I’m nervous, but I need to go for it like I’m doing with this blog.